I have to rant. I'll have been shopping ard but I still cant find "attire" for CNY.
I have too much restriction, plus the current body size, alot of nice looking clothes doesn't look nice on me anymore.
Tired to drag my kids along to shop too .. such a hassle.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
我曾拥有吗？
刚看完我表妹的facebook 照片 。。。 看到的是一个快乐，漂亮的女孩。我曾告诉她，我羡慕她，不过她说我也曾是过来人。我只能同意一半。我是曾经二十多岁过，但好象日子没她快乐，多姿多彩。我并没有早婚，但婚后自然赶在三十岁前生子，然后我就为一对儿女而活了。希望以后孩子大了，我还能追逐我想追逐的梦。我看我还是继续做白日梦吧。
Monday, December 22, 2008
Busy and happy
Another year is coming to an end .. nothing much achieved this year and I am not very happy about it.
Nothing improved, not even my weight. Its quite torturing to see those around me dressing up so nicely for the festive while I can't even find a nice outfit for CNY. Nothing look nice on my plump body. Been wasting my time dragging my kids and dh with me shopping around for nothing. I really hate CNY.
Not too sure why, I started my spring cleaning early so that I have ample time to finish what I shd, but still its end Dec and nothing much has been done. These last two weeks has been most busy cos a last minute decision to tag along with hubby to KL so that he can bring the kids to genting over the weekend when he is not working burnt away some days. Then there are loads of washing to do when we came back.
I also won 4 tickets to "fly" on singapore flyer, and had 2 complimentary entry to public swimming pool (which I aim to use it for Jurong swimming pool) expiring end of this year. Plus we just came back from a weekend stay at sheraton. DH exchanged points for the stay cos the points are expiring too. So the kids are enjoying themselves with the hotel stays. I still have to make time to bring them to tanglin for some "snow fun". Its just a few more days away from school reopen. *sigh* tiring but as long as the kids are happy, I am happy.
It is also very long since I had a real holiday, and this weekend stay, I really feel like holiday. We went bugis junction to shop and hubby brought the kids back to hotel first while I continue my shopping after dinner till 9pm. Its really the first time I feel so happy, able to have some time on my own and not worrying abt the kids. Too bad its always more hardwork after happiness (ie the laundry and other housework).
Nothing improved, not even my weight. Its quite torturing to see those around me dressing up so nicely for the festive while I can't even find a nice outfit for CNY. Nothing look nice on my plump body. Been wasting my time dragging my kids and dh with me shopping around for nothing. I really hate CNY.
Not too sure why, I started my spring cleaning early so that I have ample time to finish what I shd, but still its end Dec and nothing much has been done. These last two weeks has been most busy cos a last minute decision to tag along with hubby to KL so that he can bring the kids to genting over the weekend when he is not working burnt away some days. Then there are loads of washing to do when we came back.
I also won 4 tickets to "fly" on singapore flyer, and had 2 complimentary entry to public swimming pool (which I aim to use it for Jurong swimming pool) expiring end of this year. Plus we just came back from a weekend stay at sheraton. DH exchanged points for the stay cos the points are expiring too. So the kids are enjoying themselves with the hotel stays. I still have to make time to bring them to tanglin for some "snow fun". Its just a few more days away from school reopen. *sigh* tiring but as long as the kids are happy, I am happy.
It is also very long since I had a real holiday, and this weekend stay, I really feel like holiday. We went bugis junction to shop and hubby brought the kids back to hotel first while I continue my shopping after dinner till 9pm. Its really the first time I feel so happy, able to have some time on my own and not worrying abt the kids. Too bad its always more hardwork after happiness (ie the laundry and other housework).
Friday, October 24, 2008
Stress
Everyone has stress .... including stay at home mums. Now, I
am stress from bad time management (never good at it), and
recently, feeling stress with a hardworking husband. He reads
alot, and are serious books like financial books, self
improvement books .. while me, only at cook books.
He can take a long time to read papers, and almost all sections,
from local news, to world news, to financial, to sports, while
me just like the KPO news on entertainment. Sounds like I am
a good for nothing. 一点也不长进。
I am not sure if I can keep up with my hubby. We may drift
apart if we go on like this. I do not know what we have in
common, besides the two kids ... :-(
am stress from bad time management (never good at it), and
recently, feeling stress with a hardworking husband. He reads
alot, and are serious books like financial books, self
improvement books .. while me, only at cook books.
He can take a long time to read papers, and almost all sections,
from local news, to world news, to financial, to sports, while
me just like the KPO news on entertainment. Sounds like I am
a good for nothing. 一点也不长进。
I am not sure if I can keep up with my hubby. We may drift
apart if we go on like this. I do not know what we have in
common, besides the two kids ... :-(
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
我也有十年了
刚看到朋友提到她今年10th year anniversary了。不知她是纪念订婚十年， 还是结婚十年， 还是拍拖十年。 但我今年结婚十年了。戒指克着DDMM98. 我的结婚十年纪念日已过，但并没有什么仪式。再过一个半月，结婚十年纪念“年”也将走进历史。是有那么一点点难过， 但老公说还有很多个十年呢。我以为已经对“那些特别日子不被老公重视”的感觉麻木了，怎么还会难过呢？
enjoying life ?
Me ? Not really. But I have a friend telling me how she would
like to enjoy life like me. However, I did not know I have a life
that I can enjoy leh (ok, I do occassionally) .
I wake up early like every working adult does, except I do
manual jobs instead of sitting infront of the PC (on a cushioned
chair) in an air con environment. What manual jobs? Imagine
the cleaning lady that drops by your office, the cleaning
lady in the laundry shop, the chef in the hawker centre, the
teacher in the childcare etc. I think I hardly sit down accept
the 30 minutes per meal time (making sure my kids eat) and
the time I spent infront of my PC (on cushioned chair, luckily)
which is usually at night after the kids sleep.
I am not complaining. I have to be in this job, cos I really
don't like to compete and "fight" in the working world. I
am not very competent, so I guess I am better off as a
SAHM where I do not need to compete with anyone.
Anyway, I guess competition do exist in SAHM world, if
I want to 钻牛角尖。 I have to ask myself, how come other
SAHM can manage the household so well alone, homeschool
their kids, cook nice delicious meals, etc etc ... while me ....
Aiya, I think I have to 认命. 我就是不比人家好啦。But I guess
I should try to improve on it soon ... to be on the positive side.
like to enjoy life like me. However, I did not know I have a life
that I can enjoy leh (ok, I do occassionally) .
I wake up early like every working adult does, except I do
manual jobs instead of sitting infront of the PC (on a cushioned
chair) in an air con environment. What manual jobs? Imagine
the cleaning lady that drops by your office, the cleaning
lady in the laundry shop, the chef in the hawker centre, the
teacher in the childcare etc. I think I hardly sit down accept
the 30 minutes per meal time (making sure my kids eat) and
the time I spent infront of my PC (on cushioned chair, luckily)
which is usually at night after the kids sleep.
I am not complaining. I have to be in this job, cos I really
don't like to compete and "fight" in the working world. I
am not very competent, so I guess I am better off as a
SAHM where I do not need to compete with anyone.
Anyway, I guess competition do exist in SAHM world, if
I want to 钻牛角尖。 I have to ask myself, how come other
SAHM can manage the household so well alone, homeschool
their kids, cook nice delicious meals, etc etc ... while me ....
Aiya, I think I have to 认命. 我就是不比人家好啦。But I guess
I should try to improve on it soon ... to be on the positive side.
Monday, October 13, 2008
stupid mood
Its late, 220am, but its the usual time I sleep almost daily.
Tired but moody... has been almost 2 weeks. I thot it will come
and go as my "大姨妈” is round the corner earlier on, but now
that it has come and gone, I am still moody. I don't know what's
wrong but this is the place where I can talk to myself since
my friends are mostly not free now.
very 烦 leh. The meals are badly prepared, all cos I am moody.
When I am not in good mood, I am not in the mood to do
anything, so everything from meals to the housework are not
done in proper. Fed up. Have not been touching my baking and
beading too. Could it be early menopause?
Hope my mood will change for the better soon.
Now I think I shd go sleep, else I will have to drown
myself with coffee again.
Tired but moody... has been almost 2 weeks. I thot it will come
and go as my "大姨妈” is round the corner earlier on, but now
that it has come and gone, I am still moody. I don't know what's
wrong but this is the place where I can talk to myself since
my friends are mostly not free now.
very 烦 leh. The meals are badly prepared, all cos I am moody.
When I am not in good mood, I am not in the mood to do
anything, so everything from meals to the housework are not
done in proper. Fed up. Have not been touching my baking and
beading too. Could it be early menopause?
Hope my mood will change for the better soon.
Now I think I shd go sleep, else I will have to drown
myself with coffee again.
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