Thursday, October 28, 2010

”死“字

你說,是自己不夠幸福,還是自己不知足長樂? 每當看到別人夫妻恩愛的照片,總是會羨慕(在看朋友和老公的照片咯)。唉,要怎麼樣我才學會知足?撇開這個不說。。。剛才,我惹兒子哭了。

忘記是怎麼開始,我只記得我在“趕工”,想在10點前做完家務事能看一下電視的十點新聞。所以,催他們刷牙上床睡覺。。然後我們就為了我現在想不起來的事吵了起來。兒子他一直強調我常把死字掛嘴邊。氣死我,忙死我,累死我等,都有用到“死”字嘛。他講我用的過多,死這個字會讓他很傷心。我在“趕工”,但看他哭哭鬧鬧,為了一個字發脾氣,我更氣。我停下了手上的工作,跟他理論,跟他說,“死”這個字不是壞字,只要用對地方就可。他死都不聽 (那!又得用了)。最後,他竟然像大人般說 “enough”,不要在跟我理論了。這個小孩,語氣常常都和大人一樣。吵架時,我还miss了一個call。我們停後,他还說“mummy,go and check your missed call”。你說像不像大人。

明天他有考試,希望今晚的事不會有甚麼影響。希望他考完,我會記得去查個究竟,為甚麼他那麼抗拒“死”字。是我以前教的嗎?

現在想想,全職母親不好当。出外做工做不好,影響應該沒有媽媽教不好兒子的影響大吧。真擔心我會不知不覺把一些不對不好的思想灌輸給他。怎麼辦呢?

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi,
I think you already have the most important things in you life, a loving husband and 2 beautiful children.

Try reading "The Secret" and "The Power" by Rhonda Byrne, read with an open heart and no harm making a change, starting with yourself.

If you can create so many beautiful dishes for your family, you can be the "chef" to create a beautiful life.

Cheers!

sherlyn said...

Hi,

You did not leave a name, so don't know how to address you. (can't detect who you are too, keke)

Thank you very much for dropping by. I may not have time to read these books, cos no matter how much rest I have, I tend to doze off after a page or two, be it children books or adults novels. Not sure what is the reason ... books phobia? I had this problems when I am schooling already.

However, I will try harder to see more openly .... and have better time management so that more things can be accomplish, hopefully to better make use of my life.

Thanks again.

You have a nice weekend.

Anonymous said...

Hi Sherlyn,

I had my fair share of downs in my life (trust me it's as bad as some taiwaness series... hhhaa...!!!!), and managed to rescue myself from depression by reading motivational books. There are many books and videos out there to provide you with all the solutions you need. The books I mentioned are pretty easy to read and understand, you can even get videos or audio books from iTunes.

You can check out short clips of "The Secret" from youtube, I was totally awakened when I first saw the clips. Give it a try Sherlyn, a little effort to read or watch the video is well worth, because a positive change in you will lead to positive change to the pple your life..... : )

Happy Always!!!

Regards,
Tassie

sherlyn said...

Hi Tassie.

Thank you for the recommendation. I have seen the video clips. Very inspirational. Think positive ya? :)
Will try to find the book to see if I can digest it during the school holidays.

Thanks again for the care and concern shown to me.

Have a good day too.