I am very angry, very mess up inside. Am I pushing my boy too much, am i too strict?

I have finished ironing at ard 330 .. i rest for a while and wanted to look through his homework .. i purposely wait till he finish his 15 minutes keyboard playing (not really practicing his yamaha music somemore!). Finally saw him wandering ard the house so I ask him to sit down with me, but he keep asking me to bring him down for cycling, for playground, for bubbles and when I teach him how to add two numbers , he is not focusing.

My throat hurts from scolding him the whole day today. He has been to my mother's place liao, and has played ice there, why is he keep thinking abt playing. He did played with his lego toys when he got back from my mother's house too .. the whole afternoon today, he only did half an hour of worksheet. The rest is spend on watching TV, playing his toys, and alot of time I am scolding him but I guess he wasn't listening much.

I am not sure am i too strict on him, but I think base on his character , i need to be stricter to set the pace. If given too much leeway he ask for more the next time.

Very sad and angry! Now time to fetch the girl.

看太多连续剧了

夜深了。老公不在。想他。看港片，有classical music,觉得非常好听，不知是谁的音乐。
看港片里的爱情故事，好浪漫，好想身在其中。
我想我不怎么会做我老公的好太太， 因为我是个大懒虫，又不会煮，又不会做家务，又帮不上他在工作上的事。我，还有很多缺点，但我觉得，我很爱他。可惜这份爱，不论多大，多深，都不能弥补我的过失和缺点。老公，我给的爱足够了吗？ 唉，我想做小女人，有人照顾，疼爱。

儿子翅膀硬了!

很烦啊。儿子一直吵着要玩具。功课又不做，反正该做的不做就是了.这个儿子长大了,很会求东西,一会儿要手表,一会儿又说要大的书包,又要雨伞....我不知我以后还有能力管教他吗.
今天又有人跟我说,儿子是应该顽皮一点的! 她已是第二个了. 正巧她和先前那位的两个孙子都相当调皮, 调皮程度不得到我的认同. 有一次,当她在骂她孙子时,那孙子向她吐口水! 她也不纠正孙子. 难道这就叫"应该顽皮一点"吗?

Am I lazy ?

In the day time, its just me and the kids ... to be health concious .. its usually steam dishes when they are very young .. even veges are steamed .. like broccoli, long beans .. no complains.

Now that they are older .. they have tasted the savoury stir fried vege dishes .. steam veges are always rejected .. but I still do steam dishes .. I just steam rice, steam fishes like salmon, cod .. and have to do a stir fry vege dish .. these dishes usually do not take alot of time, so I have a little more buffer to do other stuff ..

like today .. its just steam cod and cucumber stirfry with egg .. simple and not alot of time required .. so I can steal 15 minutes on the PC, did some laundry and even a 20 minutes bicycle ride for my girl ..

Am I lazy to just do simple dishes for the kids? But i get more time if I do so this way ... I am now thinking abt buying a steamer .. so that I do not need to watch the fire ...

我那杂乱的心情

我又来了。现在的我，感觉好寂寞，超寂寞。孩子睡了，我该很开心，有时间做我想做的事。平时我是很开心，但今天，不知是不是月事关系，我觉得很寂寞，心情怪怪的，提不起劲做任何事，只想找人倾诉。

这几天频频骂儿子。骂了他后，心真的很痛。其实那些我看不顺眼的是些小事，不应该发那么大的脾气但就是不知哪儿来的无名火。不过虽是小事但也得教，只是我的方法一定是大错特错。他不该顶撞回我，还有。 。 。 哎呀忘了。 。 。 总之他有不对，我也太严了吧。希望我学习控制自己吧。

save the cows

Chinese news at 10 mentioned a lady saves cow from being slaughter n provide a place for them to retire in peace. If she manage to save all cows, then we might be facing beef price increase problem.

我也想浪漫

刚看完我表妹到埃及的照片，看到他与老公小两口的合照，我好不羡慕。我好久没和老公手牵手搭肩合影了。不知何时我能抛下两个小冬瓜和老公浪漫去。不过，浪漫这种事，并非我老公的那杯茶。不象我朋友，孩子睡了，找人看管，小两口出去看部半夜场电影，有些去喝东西，不能出去的，就在家里沙发上肩并肩，握着手，欣赏。我和他的婚姻道路还有那么长，不知会象白开水还是酒。你想叫我主动些吗？我有啊，可能不够吧。但很多事一个巴掌拍不响的嘛。心情不好，大姨妈将即吧！原谅我的牢骚。